Will You Be Happy For Me If I Never Get Married?

Because I don’t know if I want to get married

As I scroll through Facebook, the fifth time for the day, I mindlessly read shared post after shared post. I make sure to “like” my friends’ photos of their recent weddings, baby announcements, engagement pictures, etc.

I catch myself rolling my eyes as I close the app and start to notice something about myself. It’s not that strange actually; most people probably feel it after leaving Facebook.

Shame.

I don’t feel good.

I feel annoyed, and, the easiest way to put it, is I feel just wrong. Wrong as a person and wrong for not doing something others do.

I think about this for a moment and realize I am ashamed of myself for not wanting what all of my friends want and advertise to me on a daily basis.

Marriage is Not in My Near Future

I’m 31 years old, and I work a lot, but I play a lot too. So that’s not it.

I dated a lot in college and had high school sweethearts, but for the past two years, my dating life became less and less important to me. Maybe it’s the drama of trying to fit two lifestyles into one life, but to be honest, I just didn’t have the energy for it anymore.